Monday

so, how does it feel?

I'd kinda like to avoid that question altogether, but I owe you an answer. And now that the initial shock has worn off a bit, I can organize my thoughts a little better.

It feels . . .

good - It's exciting to be home. We've seen a lot of friends and family in the last two days, and it's been fun. The idea of not leaving them any time soon is nice. Jeremiah and Isaac seem to remember us. Jeremiah was a little shy at first, but he's been super excited to have us home. Isaac just smiles and runs around in circles.

sad - Today the teachers at La Palabra de Vida are meeting for the first time after their two week vacation. The students will be back on Wednesday. It's hard to not be there. We can't put into words how much we left behind or the fondness we feel for the people in Costa Rica.

overwhelming - We have a list of things we need/want to do. Its one of those lists that has been growing instead of shrinking. For every task that we check off, we think of two more we need to do. We are realizing just how simple life was in Costa Rica. One cheap cell phone, one '88 Carolla and some miniature furniture was more than sufficient. We were at the grocery store yesterday, and we couldn't believe how much food was there. We had to quit early because we're not in that kind of shopping shape.

1 month of cell phone in Costa Rica = $7
6 months of auto insurance in Costa Rica = $65

amazing - that it's over. After church yesterday, I was looking in our Sunday School room and I saw a letter hanging on the wall. It was titled, "On Our Way to Costa Rica". It was our last support letter before we left. We have been involved, in some form or another, with the Latin America Mission for about 6 years. It's strange to think that we are not anymore (technically we are affiliated with them until the end of September, but you know what I mean).

humbling - We've never really been able to get over this feeling. And now that we're finished, we can understand it completely. We are humbled by the faithfulness of God and the faithfulness of supporters. When we were in Miami, we received our most recent financial report. I have to admit that I don't always inspect them thoroughly, but I read through this one. I was amazed by the faithful giving of so many. I talked to an older gentleman at church yesterday who said he prays for us everyday and that he has more money saved up for us if we need it. Now that we're home, I've also been thinking about how God provided for us. I'm pretty sure you would laugh if I told you our total monthly income while we were in Costa Rica. As I've said before, the math doesn't add up. We should have crashed three months in, but we didn't. In fact, financial concerns never hindered our work.

concerning/challenging - We're not missionaries anymore. What if we get caught up in the pursuit of money? As I just mentioned, there was no real danger of that happening in Costa Rica. What if we stop serving? In Costa Rica, we woke up every morning and we served, whether we felt like it or not (and we often didn't). That's not the case now. We are going to have to actively seek service opportunities.